Life is full of challenges, some large, some small. Sometimes things are just annoying, other times they can be paralyzing and frustrating. I think a great deal of how we face challenges comes from where we are in our faith walk. If we can really and truly say "Nothing happens that hasn't been sifted through God's fingers and I trust Him. It'll all work out somehow even if it is really hard."
Those are tough words to say and believe...deep down... believe and cling to... even in a dark shadow place of life. I have seen and read about people clinging tight in the face of truly horrifying things. I think God is having us practice with the baby steps of normal life challenges. I'm thankful to practice so that in the event we have to face a really dark road, we can walk it confident of the goodness of the Shepherd who walks alongside us.
We've dealt with our first bout of illness here at GBA. B was diagnosed yesterday with strep throat and has successfully completed his first day of antibiotics. I can say honestly that I am most grateful that God allowed someone to discover amoxicillin. B came downstairs this morning with a smile. A first since Tuesday. Now he will just finish the meds and should be back to normal quickly.
We've also been dealing with some car issues for A this week. He had gone to get an inspection sticker last week and $700 later he was trying to leave the garage to go to class when his transmission went. *sigh* I suppose it was all good that it happened where it did - he was safe - no accident occurred because of the problem, etc. But we had to have it towed (thank goodness for AAA membership), and it's been up in Manchester for almost a week now. If all goes well and the Lord blesses he'll have the car back tomorrow after a hefty price tag. Thankfully, again, we are in a position to loan him the amount he needs to cover the repairs and he'll be repaying us over the next few months.
Early this week I had to face a series of uncomfortable medical appointments for some questionable issues. I was fine and clinging tight... right up until the night before the appointments. Then... I cried. I was scared. The 'what-ifs' invaded my mind in the darkness of the night. But God is good. Steve held me and comforted me and reminded me that my faith doesn't change when I am scared. I had my appointments and so far, it all seems fine. I won't have final answers for a few weeks, but am confident that God is absolutely in control and that it's all going to work out okay.
Practice is hard.
But I am thankful that He loves me enough to let me practice.
Learning to trust God in the realities of life instead of just the fluffy words of Sunday morning is essential. Following Jesus isn't supposed to be all rainbows and butterflies. In John 16:33, Jesus said, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
These words bring me great comfort. I will have trouble, but the One I follow has already overcome it all. That doesn't mean this life will be easy by any means, but it does mean that I don't walk alone. I can have His peace.
And once again, I am thankful.
Blessings on the journey~